| This morning I was awake at 5:30 a.m.
which is usually opposite of my routine. I work sometimes until 5:30
a.m. and get to bed. Well everything was all messed up because it
has been a difficult two days of prayer requests coming in and
several hours on the phone with a situation I was dealing with,
counseling and praying. I was tired from the battle and it caught up
with me and I had gone to bed to find myself just wrestling with
everything on many major battle fronts. Didn't sleep and thought
about Jacob wrestling with the Lord. I just got up and immediately
went to work getting sermons and new music ready for the station and
lastly opened my e-mail and to see again so much pain, sin,
questions, the world in chaos, trouble on every front and despair in
the lives of those needing prayer. Seems like I am in continual
prayer with no peace. No refuge for my heart to settle down. I
usually pray for everyone immediately sitting right in front of the
computer but today was different. I went off into another area where
I was watching the sun come up and just simply said "Heavenly
Father." The power of the Lord moved so quick and my thoughts went
immediately to Jesus at Calvary. As I was sitting with the Lord the
picture of all the chaos, pain, suffering of the world, everything
completely out of control because of sin, hatred, sadness in the
lives of people the weight I felt I laid more on Jesus' back. My
mind could not comprehend the weight of that Cross and as the Bible
says Jesus took the sins of the world on His back I was attempting
in my human state to try and comprehend that burden and I couldn't.
All the filth of man from the beginning of time until now and what
is to come Jesus had it on His back. How in the world did He, God
with us, Jesus, take that on Himself, who knew no sin, never knew a
sinful nature, care and love enough, to have His body bear that
disgust of sin we manifest everyday being what we are and Him saying
to God the Father, "Forgive them for they know not what they do."
Everyday we fill God's ears with all of our pain, hurt and suffering
as He watches what man does to man, the hatred, the wars, the
killing, the shedding of innocent blood, mocking Him, trying to
remove Him from the earth, attempting to remove His Word, His
Commandments, children being killed and victimized by disgusting
sinful predators, lustful hearts, and I could go on and on and yet I
kept seeing our Lord bearing this weight. I thought God's ears must
just be so full of noise and pain in His Spirit to see what we have
done and are doing. I found it impossible to lay one more thing on
Him at that moment.
The most incredible thing happened though. For the first time in a very long time a peace came over me that it took me by surprise. I just began talking to Him. Not as it is when a person calls continually and lays all their burdens on a person everyday and never bothers to ask how they are. I was determined to not do this to God today. I felt so humbled and said "Lord, how's your day?" I pray that someone that is grieving the Holy Spirit will repent today to give you some joy and if it is me I'm sorry, I repent. We always come to you with all our problems but seldom do we really look around and say thank you for what we do have and what prayers you have answered because as soon as one prayer gets answered than another prayer request comes and another comes and that's all we do. Father give, Father I want, Father I need. I was so confounded by all the things in the world I finally could see why once we say it, regardless of what it is, once we feel it regardless of what it is, once we do it regardless of what it is, it is out there and God sees and hears it all. Because Jesus crucified it was all on Him! I do not know how, except Him truly being God, He could have taken that. And He is! For people to reduce Him, His Word, His Bible, His laws, His Power confounded me. Like Paul who said he was the greater sinner, I felt less than Paul and felt I was. I know my only redeeming factor is Jesus took everything to the Cross with Him and by my realizing my sinful state I am justified. Not by anything of me but everything of Him! He gave me the peace and the joy that the Bible says passes all understanding. In my flesh I can not give Him enough praise for what He has done for me but the Holy Spirit in me knows! I rejoiced in my peace! I recalled the flood and the state of sin man was in back then and thought my God what holds your mighty hand now. "Jesus and all power had been given unto Him." Jesus' power, peace and mercy and that is for eternity for His true children but it will not hold much longer for sinful man is not coming to Him and repenting. As the Bible says "There is pleasure in sin for a season." We know on earth what seasons are. He said for a season then time is up. How long this season is set? He did assure us that we would know it because He revealed we would know it when it was even at the door. Right before any destruction their were some righteous still around as when Abraham was bargaining with for Lot's wife and Sodom and Gomorrah. And God looked and found one righteous man Noah and made provisions for him so what will usher this? Not satan! He doesn't dictate anything to God. Jesus said when He returned He would find little faith. Faith is through believers. The world doesn't have faith so who is He talking about? Little faith, little truth! As a real man will protect his loved ones, his home, wife and children so will God. Who will be subject to the great deception? God wouldn't allow His children to be subject to that. This deception that is here and more is coming is very powerful. It will confound and hold the masses of the world captive. They will, doesn't say maybe, will believe a lie. Jesus did not go to the Cross and bear all that sin to just leave everything to chance. He knows it all! He is not the figure you see in pictures and portraits. He wasn't that when He was made flesh. We need to pray that we are not deceived in our own walk until He does return. He will give you peace and understanding. He will illuminate the truth to you when you ask Him and it will be Him quoting scripture. Someone tells you something before you believe it...back it up with scripture. There are wolves among the sheep and your only protection is Jesus Christ your Savior and your Lord. As I sat with Him this morning my peace has returned and I can through Him again get back to praying and doing His work. All is not so overwhelming and He made a lot of things clear. Trust Him with all your heart and lean not unto thy own understanding. I didn't even have to ask. He knew my heart and gave. That's Jesus! If you need prayer I'll pray! Be blessed in Him! Crystal Clear
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